Trust me?.. I am sure that there are better things to do in this world than working your ass off to earn salaries that seem so good at the beginning of the month and have a habit of disappearing somewhere in the middle of the month without trace? almost like those annually manufactured boybands of the 90s? two peppy songs and then a greatest hits compilations before you knew it.
Both me and Radhika came back early from office yesterday night? so we had an early dinner and on an impulse? went out in the never stopping rains of Pune to catch the late night show of Iqbal?
A nice movie? the kind of nice that you know will probably be real but you wish it was?
Sort of made me look at things again in a new perspective?. Two years back? in December 2003? when I was selected for my current job during my campus placements? everything seemed so possible. The clarity of my future in my mind then had been amazing.. even for me. It had seemed like from the time I stepped out of bschool it would all be a sort of a dreamlike existence concluded by the epilogue ?And he happily lived ever after?
Things have changed and evidently for the better? yet I find myself lying awake at nights wondering about what am I going to do with life?
The typical B school grad situation? a year and a half old in the job and wondering about where my life is leading me?
I do not like techy stuff? yet am a part of an IT company. And trust me ? sometimes.. this in itself is enough a reason for you to refuse to return the ball that lands up in your balcony when the kids downstairs smash it like Sachin (when did he last do that by the way?)
See.. here I go again? complaining, bitching and being a general pain. Shucks?
Anyway, the movie yesterday made me look back at what had been my dreams when I had been in college, when I was ready to face any test/interview/GD for that elusive thrill of victory?
Surprisingly?.. my current job gives me all that I had thought I wanted in my first job and a little bit more on the side as well.
Yet , I want more. Am I greedy, or impatient, or is this what they call ambition. Or am I simply the guy who has too much time to think while he types away at a company sponsored key board?.
As Ghalib Said: Hazaron Khwahishe Aisi, Ki Har Khwahish pe Dum Nikale
Comments from the past:
30 Sep 2005, 10:29am
such is life…
am visiting pune soon, house hunting…
30 Sep 2005, 11:36am
Guess it is…
where are you looking for a house at pune? Maybe I could help you out?
30 Sep 2005, 5:04pm
that would be nice, i do need some help with location
1 Oct 2005, 10:43am
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Lets get in touch then