I found my way to the verandah and sat on the footsteps leading into the house. The sun was bright and sunny, the warmth of the sunshine embraced me as I emerged from the shady interiors of our house. Three bedrooms, one kitchen, one hall and a verandah…all wrapped together by a piece of land we called our garden … vegetables planted in the back and flowers grown out front.
Sometimes, Sunflower seedlings would sprout amongst the coriander sprigs at the back…
“They are shy” Amma used to say,” They do not like to be seen by everyone but only the family, if you take good care of them, water them everyday, they will flower soon”
And believing her I would take special care to water the shy ones, the ones who were resplendent in private, whose beauty was known to only those who were allowed to walk over all the way to the back of the house…who managed to get past the hall filled with heavy wooden furniture, the living quarters strewn with rumpled bed sheets and text books covered with brown paper and a kitchen fragrant with spices of a meal in the offing…
A sunflower in a coriander patch… how incongruous, how endearing…
“Can you come back to Kanpur tomorrow? Beta, mummy is not well. Beta, just come”, said my father before breaking down over the phone…
I had to call my uncle to get the sordid details… an internal infection, a high fever, a sudden failure of the body organs, and suddenly, my home seemed so far away from Mumbai….
A frantic search for available flights and a flurry of calls later, I found myself aboard a 3.5 hour long flight back to Kanpur…
How many times have you said goodbye to your mother?
Each day, each morning, she would drop whatever she was doing to see me to the door as I left for school. I waved back too… am sure I did. Or did I? A thousand inconsequential farewells…
And then there was the day I left for my engineering college… my parents dropped me at the college and helped me complete the mountains of paperwork colleges in India demand before you are given a room in a hostel and a roll number for the next 4 years. I was scared as my parents waited for the cab to take them back to the railway station. She turned and gave me a big hug and held me till I squirmed with embarrassment. Her face covered in tears she went away, waving from the window…
I missed my family terribly for the first few months at college, writing long winding letters and making anxious call home each weekend… I cannot really pin-point when was it that I moved on from being home sick to falling in love with my college life.
“Can’t you get a job in Delhi, its closer to Kanpur? Why Mumbai?” She had asked, just once. I was too filled with pride at my newly acquired job to notice the hint of sadness in her question. I packed away my stuff making sure that I carried some of my favorite books along. She helped me clear up my book cases, absent mindedly flipping the pages of some books that she had bought with me together over the years.
They waved as I entered the airport… standing next to our old family car… and I waved goodbye never to look back.
The flight was now circling over Kanpur… I could see the blue crescent of the Yamuna river as it sliced the city into two…
“This is where I come from” I thought to myself, “And this is where they remained”
The cab ride to the hospital was a blur… The entrance to her private room was crowded with friends and family…
“Your father is inside, they just brought her from the ICU” Someone said between hugs and greetings and somber smiles…
I found him sitting by his side. My burly father seemed even larger sitting by her tiny frame. She seemed asleep, and he was talking to her, in a voice so filled with love that I nearly cried. He turned towards me and looked at me with eyes rimmed with tears. My own eyes stung as I bent down to touch his feet, and in a voice not completely my own I said
“Don’t worry Papa, everything will be fine”
We sat by her side through the night… the medical equipment blinked and beeped and her breath rattled in her chest as it strained its way through her tired body. The needles and tubes running in her body, her matted hair against the pillow, and eyes slightly clenched as she slept. In the morning, after a spell of disturbed breathing, she passed away.
The next few days were a blur of ceremonies and rituals… all I remember are snatches of conversations, grieving faces, all of us pouring a blend of ingredients into a holy fire. Amongst all of this, I found myself tearing up each time I saw her picture laden with garlands.
That picture, is now hanging in the hall. Next to the oil painting she painted years ago… facing the window. “This is a good location for hanging my paintings” She used to say, “The sun light makes everything in the picture glow”
I lit up a cigarette and breathed in the smoke, and smiled wryly as I remembered how much she hated my smoking. Well, some things are hard to let go of I guess. I walked all the way round to the back of the house… our vegetable garden needed to be weeded. I could almost see her bent over the rows of plants, using tools improvised with kitchen utensils to hoe the soil, uproot the weeds and trim the dry branches…making space for the fruits to grow… making sure that the fallen leaves, did not hold back the young saplings.
I treaded carefully amongst the rows of plants, trying not to get too much mud on my leather loafers… and then I saw it, nestled amongst the sprigs of coriander, a tiny sunflower seedling.
“What is that?”, I turned to find my six year old nephew standing beside me…
I pointed a finger and said, “That’s a sunflower plant”
“But it does not have any flowers !”
“It will flower if you water them”, I smiled as I stubbed my cigarette..
“Trust me….they always flower. ”
18 thoughts on “A Sunflower in a Coriander patch…( A story)”
Speechless I am.
Brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing
Its a very nice story!
Thanks Vani, and welcome to our blog
It’s beautiful.. too beautiful to be pure fiction.. is it?
Rag, I guess every story has a bit of the author’s life woven into it. No, this one isn’t pure fiction either. Thanks for visiting us !
Completely my pleasure Sir 🙂
This one is really touching. I’ve finally read most of your blogs and i believe you must take the next logical step i.e. try and pen a novel or collection of short stories.
I wish I can someday bhai !
You are one consistent writer who can sweep off the reader to your own world EVERY TIME!!!!
You are awesome!!
Thanks a lot Sumathi 🙂
You moved me to tears. I also went through similar crisis in life.
Nothing more to say. Wait for your next one…..
it is impossible to read this piece without blurred vision. rush of memories…… every moment crystal clear. wonderfully woven story
kya khoob likhte ho bhai! ab ek novel ho jai.
Thanks Didi ! Somehow I never got notified for this comment ! I will have to fix my website 🙂